The death of a co-worker's young husband. Events like these cause me to reflect fairly deeply in to my own life. While I know it's nearly impossible to live everyday as if it is your last, it is quite possible and much easier to let go of pain to live more fully in the present.

I have been through a lot in the past three years and in the end, the only person I have yet to forgive is myself. It wreaks havoc on me physically at times and I know that in order to more effectively live my life, I have to let go of some things. However, I still find the "how" of forgiving myself somewhat difficult.

What I must remember is that when my time comes to leave my physical body (and that could be as soon as later tonight), I want the other halves of my most intimate relationships/friendships to be able to say she did well despite the circumstances. She lived, she learned, she adjusted, and she loved to very best of her ability. If I can make that happen, it will make my life well-lived.

My heart goes out to my co-worker and her young son. May the memories of their husband and father remain strong and positive despite his short life in this physical form.